Little miracles happen between us every day. Did you know that?
I'm always fine.
Even when I'm not fine, I'm "fine."
Ninety percent of the time, I'm genuinely fine, without the quotation marks. But a few months ago, I was not fine.
I was going through some things. I was struggling.
But healing is healing. And every time I became engaged in an acupuncture or hypnotherapy session and quietly told a patient to breathe, I would breathe along with them. As I did, my racing heart would calm, my racing mind would still, the jagged edges of my self-control would smooth over for a while.
I LOVE my client base, but there are a number that I have a special connection with. One night, one of these clients came in. She took one look in my eyes and knew that I was not fine.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"I'm fine," I said automatically.
"You're not fine. Go home. You need to take care of yourself. I don't need a session tonight."
"I want you to have your session," I said. "You're my last. After you, I promise I will go home and take care of myself."
"Okay," she said, "but here's how it's going to work. I want YOU to have this treatment. It's my gift to you. I want you to pretend that you are lying on the table, treating yourself, and I want you to give me every needle that you need."
She got on the table and closed her eyes, smiling. I started my work, choosing exactly what I would want for myself. As I needled, I felt my eyes fill up with emotion. With every acupuncture needle I inserted, I felt lighter, calmer, more centered. I hadn't known what I needed, or why I needed it, until this gift was presented to me.
I left the room and curled up in my cozy chair in the waiting room. My eyelids felt heavy, and a warm blanket of peace stole over me as I rested there. For the first time all day, my heart was plodding along in its normal rhythm, and my breath was deep and slow.
How lucky am I to have these amazing connections with my clients?