Indifference

I'm not sure if it's due to a dramatic increase in my patient load, the fact that I haven't had time to keep up with my weekly acupuncture maintenance sessions, or just allergies, but I have felt like crap over the last week or so. I'm overtired and not taking enough time for myself, and I know that this is weakening the boundaries between myself and my patients. Years ago, I would always feel sick after seeing 3 or 4 people in a row. Then I started practicing Reiki, and I guess I got energetically stronger; rather than feeling exhausted after seeing lots of patients, I would feel extra energized. This continued up until recently.

And this week? Ugh. On the bright side, though, my patients all seem to be feeling fantastic after their sessions, so my lack of energy isn't affecting their treatments.

I spoke to a friend of mine about this situation, and her reply was right to the point: "You care too much. You need to be more indifferent." I do get where she is coming from; an acupuncturist who sucks in her patients' pain is going to burn out, and quickly. However, I've also been thinking lately about the concept of manifesting, and whether it can extend to others beyond ourselves in the form of healing. If it can, then wouldn't indifference be counter-productive? Don't you need to feel a passion for something in order to manifest its existence?

I've spent some time on this blog discussing manifestation, the idea of visualizing what you want, and then making it happen. I manifest things all the time. I've gotten so good at it, it's almost scary. The other day, I was talking to a friend about whether it is possible to manifest something for someone else.

"Why not?" she replied.

"Well, to make something happen, you have to really focus on it, to see it in your mind's eye. Don't you think that it would be difficult to feel a burning desire for something on someone's else's behalf? Wouldn't the focus be diluted?"

She thought about this for a moment. "Hmm...probably more difficult, but not impossible. As long as you both want it, whatever it is."

Hmm. So, could I manifest better treatment results, if I really focused on visualizing my patients reacting in a certain way? Or am I already doing this?

Let's hear some input on this. Acupuncturists, do you think that you can visualize your way to a better treatment result? And patients, do you think that your healthcare provider's attitude about how much progress is expected makes a difference in how you react to a treatment?